A Lesson in Humility

I always consider my self as an antihero. A Nobita-like character of someshort. It was "cool" for a while, acting all pessimistic and bleak. But then I met this people, with their enthusiasm and optimistic approach towards life. I mean not just the regular enthusiasm, but a sweet-passionate positivity; their brightness almost beat the sun. And it got me thinking... maybe acting all depressive and hating the world is not the best way to go. No, I'm not suddenly become all positive and cheery because of them. They just somehow reminds me of finding this meme a few months a go, it said: "Not sure if bleak outlook on life and general hopelessness means I'm depressed OR JUST GROWING UP." When I first found the meme, I immediately felt relates to it. Yeah, I was very sure that in order of becoming an honest grown ups, we must at least feels a kind of hopelessness in life. But these people--those I considered as "most people" actually--could bow to the life gracefully, and regards life as something which offer definite happiness. Perhaps--just perhaps--being all grown up means the opposite of what I presume all these time. You know what Timon said; "when the world turn its back on you, you turn your back on the world." I've been turning my back on the world for years now.
I'm old. No point debating the fact.And I guess I've acting like a teenage angst for far too long.
*Notes: this is actually a drafted submission from maybe 2 years a go... find it quite funny heheh.. teenage angst...