Jumat, Desember 30, 2016
Today I feel amazingly frustrated by how stupid every people around me (especially men) behaved. I'm a nice person (cursed me!), but should I drank a glass of verita serum, I'd sure be emasculating their intellect there and then. Gosh, does that mean that I'm a narcissistic bitch deep inside? People said I'm picky when it comes to friends and boys, but to be honest, I'm secretly undermining most people around me. There are a number of people I regarded as someone I look up to; but more often than not, I find they to be annoyingly & uninterestingly dull too :(
Gosh, I might be a narcissist indeed. Oh joy, I'm a Cersei instead of a Daenerys :( And I know, if I can't bend this perspective, I soon meet my (social) doom...
Kamis, Desember 08, 2016
Rabu, November 23, 2016
Contemplate this: a source material written by a beloved prolific novelist; a prodigy director at the peak of his creativity; four casts of a very talented young boys, whose personality matched their characters perfectly they practically played themselves; and a script so well written it was almost beat the source material itself. Well, it turns out the combination of those quality will result in a “one of the kind” movie, evidenced here by Rob Reiner’s “Stand by Me”.
Rabu, November 09, 2016
Sabtu, Oktober 29, 2016
Senin, Oktober 24, 2016
Jumat, Oktober 21, 2016
Senin, Oktober 03, 2016
Sabtu, Oktober 01, 2016
I actually received two Palahniuk's books as a birthday gifts, but drenching yourself in their nihilistic agenda is not a wise thing to do. So those book shall wait for a while. Although I still get that feeling of addiction toward the blackish-comedy of his works, but it gets into your daily life sometimes. I mean every materials you read, or watch, or heard, will affected your life somehow. So reading a negativity-induced novel in a row will do your life no good :D
Currently reading on "On Criticism" by Noel Carrolll--a very sharp opinionated book in the area of critics, although focusing more in art critics--but since I left the copy back at my boss' place, as a substitute, I idly took out one of my old Dawkins' book out of the shelf. It's titled "The Greatest Show on Earth". Been reading this since 2011, and I don't think I've ever manage to finished it. Read it from the very beginning, starting off with the preface; and it somehow reminds me of his writing style which is a little bit snobbish. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind him being snobbish at all, it even amuses me, remembering his hard agenda to take down creationism. Being overtly intellectual (in style) in his book brings a few notes for us who are sympathetic for his cause; it's like an ironic gesture from his part to highlight how foolish his opponent has been.
But apart from this funny aspect of the book, well it's a fun material to read, and it's an encyclopedic ride all along. And I just realized, my English skill must has been improving, because I read this copy much more pleasing; better than 5 years a go...
Senin, September 26, 2016
Said Madison Spencer, the snarkiest post-alive teenage girl ever. Can her description of her pitiful soul can go bleaker than that? No I don't think people (the normal ones at least) could come up with crazy sentence like that.
Minggu, September 18, 2016
Woke up with a realization that everything is inevitably nihilistic *loongsigh*
The central point of the problem lies within my lack of beliefs, whether it be a systemical belief or faith in an existential manner. You know the Kubler-Ross model of grief, the one which describe grief in phases such as: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, & acceptance. I for one believe, that we shall add a subsequent phase: apathy.
Apathy is the core corollary of nihilism I supposed. What to do when everything is skeptically important anymore? well be bored and get apathical I guess.
My boss told me I was so expert on shooing men away. It seems such a proudful gesture, but no, really, I don't mean to be picky or anything, or have a certain belief that I deserve a particular qualities in men. No, the reason is actually stemmed in my apathy towards life. I'm at a point in which when I'm hopeful about something it will only gets me alerted; for I believe hope is toxic and will trap you in expectations, which many times cheated on you.
I don't do any art (just a bunch of petty projects to gets life going), I don't want a permanent relationship (& never had a serious one), I don't open my self too much to people; cause I know nil is the inevitable quality of life.
Just like old Eric Idle said: you come from nothing to nothing, what are you losing? Nothing..!
Kamis, Agustus 25, 2016
Selasa, Juni 28, 2016
Film, dengan segala potensinya sebagai medium narasi, memang memiliki gravitasi tersendiri dibandingkan media lainnya. Dengan durasi yang relatif pendek, film harus diracik dengan penuh pertimbangan agar mampu menyampaikan pesan, meninggalkan kesan, dan tentunya memenuhi standar kualitas tertentu—sesuai dengan harapan para pemirsanya. Seringkali kita tak bisa menunjuk secara tepat mengapa sebuah film disebut berkualitas. Satu yang pasti, sebuah film bisa dibilang “bagus” karena ia bisa dinikmati dan berhasil mengikat perhatian kita selama sekian puluh menit, sedari awal semenjak judul digelar, hingga saat daftar kredit diputar. “The Princess Bride” (TPB) saya kira adalah salah satu contoh film macam ini. Ia mampu membuat penonton larut dalam pesonanya, padahal jika mengacu pada standar umum TPB dikemas seacara sederhana tanpa bintang terkenal dan efek-efek komputer yang dramatis.
Sabtu, Juni 18, 2016
Rabu, Juni 01, 2016
Kamis, Mei 19, 2016
Kamis, Mei 12, 2016
It's been about 9 years since I land myself in the absurd island of Monty Python. It began in some time around 2007, when I, out of boredom, bought a pirated dvd of Monty Python & the Holly Grail. What an enlightening experience! After watching Grail, every joke and other comedy entities stand far behind Monty Python. I don't know how to dumb down the reality behind their comedy, but theirs, I have to admit, has absolutely made a groundbreaking in the field of contemporary funniness, and has become a kind of clowning manifesto in our recent culture.
If we were to examine how humor works, it is known that one of the main theory of comedy is the Incongruity Theory. Wikipedia said:"The incongruity theory states that humor is perceived at the moment of realization of incongruity between a concept involved in a certain situation and the real objects thought to be in some relation to the concept." In this sense, we know that in perceiving an incongruent interaction between elements of a joke/humor/comedy; people try to find a kind of a resolution, or a realization of how the relation between the elements worked. In the case of Monty Python, the relation seldom existed. What's more, their humor often created more incongruities and absurdities.
According to Dr. Shockmd--followthislinkplease--the degree of this unresolved-ness is what makes Monty Python distinctively funny. Why I put "distinctively", because in the area of funniness, I find that many people doesn't really enjoy the zany humor of Python's. I used to feel uncomfortable when some people might see me as snobbish when I tell them I enjoyed Monty Python a lot. Because many feels that those who enjoy Monty Python tend to be a pompous little hipsters--and quite frankly, I don't want to be categorizes as hipster--but actually, that's really irrelevant. Dr. Shockmd stated, that there might be reason to why some people could enjoy Python very much and some are just not. He said: "This appreciation of nonsense jokes and cartoons is dependable on personality characteristics. Those with a high level of experience seeking appreciate nonsense humor more." ("nonsense humor refers to Python-like humor).
Okay okay, I might end up stating a snobbish fact after all, but please, contemplate the statement a little bit deeper, and you'll find that Dr. Shockmd's opinion is not snobbish at all. Many people must thought that Monty Python's joke belong to "intelligent"people, while, Dr. Shockmd's theory stated that people who liked Python tend to be more experience-seeking. So it's not a matter of "bigger brain loves Monty Python more", it's those who are experience-seeker, tend to enjoy Monty Python better. What's an experience-seeker, you asked? Dr. Shockmd, said: "Experience seeking involves a search for novel sensations, stimulation and experiences through the mind and senses, through art, travel, music, and the desire to live in an unconventional style." It's the unconventionality that makes unconventional people are so compatible with Monty Python sense of humor.
But it is interesting to acknowledge that their unconventionality had been a milestone in the fields of today humor. Even though seemingly represent British humor only, Monty Python actually worked in much deeper level. Their works had proven that humor could break the border of culture and nationality, that laughter and witticism is a nature part of human being. And in the spirit of global culture, we, non-western people, may find their humor become more and more familiar. Should it be slapstick, dark humor, absurd gags, or simply just some Englishmen dressing up as old ladies (pepperpots as they called it), many of us couldn't help their rib-tickling charm.
So to all "experience-seeker"out there, try this old chaps gags once in a while. It will really worth your time.
Senin, Mei 02, 2016
On answering our curiosity of whether are we alone in the universe or are we not, I guess at some point we might find our self in doubt: could we be in some short of a simulation in which we could never reach the existence so far away it become mere illusion. But learning from our recent history, human are capable to generate an impressive progression of civilization by proving out this so called illusion into reality, and made it reachable and testable. I supposed being in the optimistic spectrum will be more rewarding, but of course with a healthy portion of skepticism along the way. And after scanning through (fun-browsing) the internet, there are a lot of connective invention that might someday brings human to an unpredictable new level.
Personally I feel ashamed and humbled that I am not part of those human beings who brings a lot to the progression of civilization, and to the amazing probability of our species' evolution. But to merely anticipate the probability really takes you into a new philosophical areas. It makes the personal troubles of our life seems so much more insignificant and trivial. And in a brighter perspective, it brings a sort of empowerment in thinking that we are worth more than we are today; that perhaps someday we will be liberated into a new developed being, far more advance than our current being. Meh or I supposed I am just a hopeful geek trying to navigate my confidence in a hustle and bustle of contemporary competition :D.
Minggu, Maret 20, 2016
I've been struggling heavily with this crippling bad habit. As evidenced by the fact that I'm writing this, instead of keep working on a task with a very tight deadline. Just this morning I got the email with that link to Tim Urban's TED talk, and well, can't help but intensely relate to it. Tim points out a very interesting statement, that all of us are basically procrastinators. At some degree, I agree. But there are some critical differences between us the very chronic procrastinators and those of normal spectrum of the human population. And he is right, the most significant is the presence of that abominable creature, namely the instant gratification monkey. We the chronic procrastinators gave up far too easily and too often to that damnable abstract primate. I guess it has something to do with the way we evolved. As simple animals, we used to fulfill our current needs, the necessity in the present, and doesn't take precaution to whatever would happen in the future or learn from whatever happened in the past. The urgently to do is the easiest, pleasurable thing we could do now, at this very moment. Just like a lion would hunt when hungry, sleep when sleepy, mate when the urge happens to come by; we the chronic procrastinators would procrastinate when the urge to delay come by. And the urge come by each and every time...
But you know, I've met a fellow chronic procrastinators in the past. And some of them are quite successful. I guess we need a thorough scrutiny to determine what went wrong. Even if I may succeeded to pinpoint that the main culprit for the failing of my life is procrastination, I gotta realize that a mishap always occurs not because of one single reason. One element that cause a series of unfortunate events, always had helps from other factors too. Erm, let's see, perhaps the specific architecture of my life (culturally,financially, psychologically), which resulted in a Me who's having a serious case of insecurities and self confidence, when coupled with a bad habit of crazy-procrastination, would resulted in a destructive-detrimental chaos which is my life :P
I've given up the idea of brilliance as an alpha part of myself. Because, one, who need a self aware-self proclaimed genius in the age of many "genius" such as today; and two, this illusion of having a good image of yourself is mostly delusional and will only get you lost in seeing the reality (the true and genuine one); and third, it only give me a temporal confidence, so it's practically useless; and fourth, it just won't take me anywhere.
I gotta say Gary Cox is right. Being an existentialist is important nowadays. And being one is not a matter of encompassing yourself in the work of Sartre, Nietzsche, Heidegger, or any of their likes. It's about getting real, get a grip, and stop making excuses.
Eheh, I guess it's time for me to get some drawing done....
Jumat, Maret 18, 2016
Senin, Maret 14, 2016
While I was with another,
Sabtu, Maret 12, 2016
The initial exhibition was held somewhere around September, last year.
Minggu, Februari 14, 2016
yet here I am thinking...
about the gap stretching between here and the day of thousand light years away;
of late night chats, of shared philosophy, of the distance which seemingly never been able to cut that crazy fixture--that is "us"
It never was a beautiful, severe, agonizing liaison; unlike our unshared past
...but we are an unlikely creatures indeed, accidentally allied by conjoint grief & disappointment...
I'm not about to deny:
the fading away passion and diminishing force fused us together on those pensive days;
the dwindling enthusiasm and deteriorating intimacy on those private nights;
the shrinking number of fervent dialogues about something, nothing, and everything...
it was all inevitable...
I'd like to claim that we were mature creatures,
that we were already hold on to our own sorrowful wisdom beforehand,
that we won't let ourselves lost in illusion and fixation...
yet here I am, listening to both rendering of "Love Buzz"
wondering if you have the same longing too,
to catch up to whatever we left hanging,
at some point in our bygone days...
really miss you, hunbun...