my jealousy

I am jealous

Of your certainty for norms and measurement

Of your confidence on past, present, and future

Of your knowledge for every possible darkness lurking in every corner of life

I am jealous

Of your formula on happiness and settlement

Of your concluded plans, schemas, and agenda

Of your very vast connectedness to things, thoughts, and spirits

I am jealous

Of your relentless-faithful loyalty

Of your crystal ball of prediction and divination

Of your readily answers to every questions and inquiries

I am jealous...

But would you jealous

Of my diffidence and insecurities

Of my constant doubt and perennial questions

Of my chronic skepticism?